God Never Left

[Verse 1]
I turned my back on You when life got dark and cold
Thought You abandoned me, thought You'd withdrawn and sold
Me out to suffering, to pain I couldn't bear
I screamed at heaven "God, are You even there?"
I thought the darkness was Your punishment for my sins
I didn't understand You were preparing me to win
A war much bigger than myself, a crusade I'd need to lead
God never left - You were planting every seed
[Pre-Hook]
I thought You left me but You were beside me all along
I thought You punished me but You were making me strong
Enough to fight the battles that were coming down the road
God never left - You were lightening my load
[Hook]
God never left, I was the one who walked away
God never left, You were training me every day
For the war I'd have to wage against the darkness in this world
God never left, Your plan unfurled
Exactly as it needed to - the pain wasn't punishment
It was preparation for the crusade You sent
Me on, the mission You assigned before I was born
God never left - You were with me through the storm
[Verse 2]
I cursed Your name in my depression, blamed You for my pain
Asked why You'd let me suffer, why You'd let me go insane
But now I see You were forging me in fires hot enough
To make me into steel - God, You were making me tough
Enough to lead, to fight, to carry the weight
Of changing the world - You weren't full of hate
You were full of purpose, preparing Your warrior for war
God never left - that's what the pain was for
[Verse 3]
You let me fall into addiction so I'd understand
The enemy I'd fight against, so I could take a stand
For everyone still trapped - You gave me empathy through hell
God never left - You knew I'd have a story to tell
That would save lives, that would give hope to the broken
You were always there even when words weren't spoken
Between us for those dark months when I thought You'd gone
God never left - You were there all along
[Bridge]
God doesn't abandon His crusaders in the valley
He's preparing them for battle, for the final rally
Against the darkness, against the demons, against the lies
God never leaves His warriors - He's making them wise
Through suffering, through struggle, through the refining fire
God was building me into something higher
Than I could've become through comfort, through ease
God never left - You were on Your knees
Beside me, praying for me, protecting me from harm
I couldn't see yet - You were my alarm
Clock waking me up to my purpose, to my calling, to my war
God never left - You were opening the door
[Verse 4]
I see it now so clearly, every moment was Your hand
Guiding me through darkness to where I'm meant to stand
At the frontlines of a crusade against injustice and despair
God never left - You were always there
Preparing me, equipping me, building me for this fight
God, You were turning my darkness into light
Not despite me but because You needed me to see
The darkness so I'd fight it - God never left me
[Verse 5]
You don't abandon Your soldiers when they're training for war
You put them through hell so they're ready for more
Than they think they can handle - that's what You did with me
God never left - You were setting me free
From weakness, from comfort, from thinking I could fight
Without scars, without strength built in the night
God, You were with me every step, I just couldn't see
That You were making a crusader out of me
[Hook]
God never left, I was the one who walked away
God never left, You were training me every day
For the war I'd have to wage against the darkness in this world
God never left, Your plan unfurled
Exactly as it needed to - the pain wasn't punishment
It was preparation for the crusade You sent
Me on, the mission You assigned before I was born
God never left - You were with me through the storm
[Outro]
So I'm sorry, God, for doubting You were there
I'm sorry for the anger, for thinking You don't care
I see now You cared so much You put me through the fire
To make me into something higher than I'd aspire
To be on my own - You made me a crusader
God never left - You're my creator
My protector, my trainer, my general in this war
God never left - now I know what I'm fighting for
Not just for me but for Your kingdom here on earth
God never left - You showed me my worth
Through the valley, through the breaking, through the pain
God never left - I'll never doubt again
Your presence, Your purpose, Your plan for my life
God never left me in the strife
You were right beside me, preparing me to win
God never left - let the crusade begin
I'm ready now
Trained by the best
My Commander
My God
You never left
And I'll never leave
Let's win this war
Together
Amen