The Darkest Night

[Verse 1]
I took the pills without thinking, chemicals flooding my brain
Sub-consciously seeking an ending to the pain
I didn't consciously decide to die that night
But my body was surrendering, giving up the fight
Then something shifted, clarity broke through the haze
I realized what I'd done - the fog turned to blaze
Of panic, of terror, of "no, not like this"
I fought back with everything, refused the abyss
That was pulling me under, calling me home
I should have died alone
[Pre-Hook]
But in that moment of realization, of absolute fear
I created a vision so massive, so clear
Of what I'd accomplish if I survived this night
I fought with positivity, fought with all my might
[Hook]
That night I should have died but God spared my life
Because He saw His greatest crusader through the strife
I begged Him for mercy, promised I'd fulfill
The massive vision I created through sheer will
To survive, to live, to fight another day
God looked at my crusade and decided I could stay
On earth to build it, to make it reality
That night God chose me for His greatest cavalry
Against darkness, against injustice, against despair
I should have died but God kept me here
[Verse 2]
As the overdose took hold, as my body started failing
I fought back with imagination, with detailed unveiling
Of the empire I would build, the lives I would change
The crusade felt so real, so massive in its range
That it became my anchor, my reason to keep breathing
I visualized so vividly, so completely believing
That if I survived I'd make it happen, I'd fulfill
Every detail of the vision - that became my will
To live, to fight, to claw my way back from death's door
I created purpose worth fighting for
[Verse 3]
I begged God through the chaos, "Please don't let me die"
"I have so much to accomplish, so many reasons why"
"I need to stay here, I have a mission to complete"
"Let me live and watch me turn this vision concrete"
The crusade I imagined was so enormous, so clear
A thousand businesses, billions in impact - no fear
Just certainty that this is what I'm meant to do
God heard my prayer, God saw it too
The potential, the purpose, the plan I'd created
In desperation - and His answer wasn't belated
[Bridge]
Most people die when they take what I took that night
But God intervened, God saw the light
Inside me that was worth preserving, worth saving
The crusader He'd been preparing, been engraving
Into existence through every trial I'd endured
God spared my life because He was assured
That I would fulfill the vision I created in crisis
That I would become His instrument - His righteous
Warrior for change, for impact, for transformation
God chose me that night - divine salvation
[Verse 4]
The doctors couldn't explain how I survived the dose
God had other plans - He chose
Me to live, to build, to lead the crusade
That I imagined in desperation - not afraid
Anymore of dying because I've been to the edge
I made God a pledge that if He spared my life
I'd dedicate it completely to the mission He designed
God saw His greatest crusader - one of a kind
Combination of broken and healed, of humble and bold
That night God's story unfolded
[Verse 5]
Now I understand why I'm still breathing, still here
God preserved me because the crusade He holds dear
Needs someone who's been through hell and came back stronger
Someone who knows darkness intimately but chose the longer
Path to light, to purpose, to serving something greater
God needed a crusader, not just an operator
Of businesses - He needed someone with a mission
Who would use success for global transformation
I should have died but God had better plans
He put the crusade in my hands
[Hook]
That night I should have died but God spared my life
Because He saw His greatest crusader through the strife
I begged Him for mercy, promised I'd fulfill
The massive vision I created through sheer will
To survive, to live, to fight another day
God looked at my crusade and decided I could stay
On earth to build it, to make it reality
That night God chose me for His greatest cavalry
Against darkness, against injustice, against despair
I should have died but God kept me here
[Outro]
So every breath I take now is borrowed from death
Every step I make is with God's blessed breath
In my lungs, giving me second chance at life
Not to waste but to wield like a knife
Against everything wrong in this world we inhabit
The crusade I imagined wasn't just a rabbit
I pulled from desperation - it was revelation
God's plan for my ultimate destination
As His warrior, His instrument, His chosen fighter
That night made me a survivor and igniter
Of movements, of change, of impact that will last
I should be dead but God held me fast
Kept me alive for the crusade He'd assigned
I'm living because God saw His greatest crusader
His warrior prepared through fire
I should have died - instead I inspire
Through survival, through mission, through purpose divine
That night God said "this crusader is mine"